Today was good. Long, but good. I got up early and went to Janey's wedding. I'm really glad I got to be there for her. I'm so happy for her. We had quit talking for a while so I was only around her with coy when they first got together. I saw them together today and it was very obvious to me that they cared about eachother. I remember one summer back in highschool when Janey called me crying hysterically because her then boyfriend and first love broke up with her for "having different religious views." Janey never cries. Shes come so far. It just reminds me how much we have gone through together. Yeah I know, stop being so sappy.
After that Jeffrey and I went to the hospital to see both of my maternal grandparents. Grandma is in ICU because she her hemoglobin is low and is having trouble making red blood cells She'll definitely be okay though. Grandpa fainted while holding her hand while they tried to give her an IV. He will be okay too. I'm glad they'll both be okay and it was really nice to see them. I'm sad it had to be under those circumstances. I do love them. Very much. I just can't imagine being "apart" of that family anymore. I'm not going to air all of my family's dirty laundry or name names or anything trashy or immature, but I am going to say that there was some gross injustice some odd years ago. I just now years later, and years older understand what happened. I do not wish to see one person in that family. That is what keeps me personally away. I know that she is apart of the family though and will always be there. I can't trust myself not to be ugly continuously and so degrading to her. My mother never held me from my family, I chose not to apart of it for my own reasons. Mostly support for my mother. I don't want anything to do with anyone who wants to hurt her.
Point of saying all that is that woman was there when I visited my grandpa. I found it very difficult to be civil then while he was laying in a hospital bed. I'm not telling you all this so that you can make sense of it yourself. I'm just spitting out whats on my mind. Also this is one more reason I feel lucky to have Jeffrey. I have his family. I'm apart of his family now too. So at least I have them. Its not the same, but it some ways its better. After that we came home and Jeffrey went back to bed and I called my mom and convinced her to go see her mom. I'm really glad that she did and that they talked. Even if it means nothing is going to change between them. I think they should get to see who eachother is now Anyways... again. For the rest of the day while jeffrey slept I just played my sims. I've mastered the athletic skill and now I'm working on logic and painting. I know how nerdy am I? Also right now I am listening to the spice girls and watching Baby play Fable 2. We are both trying to finish that up so we can start three which was a christmas present. :D Speaking of how nerdy I am, which I am proud of, when I'm done with this I'm not sure whether to play some more sims or to read my greek mythology book (for FUN) until I pass out. In other news, I found an apartment complex Jeffrey and I will be able to afford when he starts working. I don't care about the outside as long as its liveable on the inside and I'm not scared to be there alone. I want to go look at them soon.
an apartment is fine as long as you give it a good bleach scrub when you first move in.
ReplyDeleteand i found my sims 3. i'm so excited! i'm going to buy their new expansion pack too.
and i'm glad your mom went to see your grandmother. i know it must've been hard and there are probably still feelings of resentment. i only know a tidbit of what happened and honestly, i don't blame your mother. but i hope she got to express some of those feelings to your grandmother to help clear some of the air. it's your family, but it sucks that sometimes the people that are supposed to love you the most cause you the most pain and suffering.
i think so too. i love the sims 3. i wish i could afford the expansion packs lol. me too. but i think yesterday was not the best time for them to talk about their feelings because she was sick and in the hospital. mom said they just caught up on what they've been missing. i don't blame my mom either. i know exactly what you mean. and i know that you know how it feels. i hope so badly that things don't ever get to that point for you. i'm glad you married coy and your parents will be too soon. they just didn't want to loose you so soon. i think its amazing that you have someone who is going to be there for you 1000% of the time. you deserve it. chin up bby! its all gonna work out
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