Chronicles of a Fat-Ass

This is my 30th blog post! I promise I won't get excited again until number fifty! Lol. Nothing really happened today. I went looking for work pants because I start on tuesday. Ugh shopping for clothes is officially depressing. I don't want to spend a whole entry whining about how fat I am, but I'm really down about it today. I will try a lot harder now. I downloaded a calorie counter/food and exercise diary on my phone. That ought to be a good start. Maybe I can observe my habits so that I know how to change. It sounds simple right? Eat better food, smaller portions, and burn off more calories than you take in. Why can't I do that? Its the answer to all of my problems! Hopefully working will help out with the weight loss. I'll be up and on my feet and won't have much time to eat. If I'm really lucky I will become repulsed by burgers and fries after being surrounded by it all the time.

I've never had to deal with trying to loose weight before. I've always been able to eat what I want when I want and how much of it I want with no consequences. I guess my metablosism came to a screeching hault when high school marching band wasn't keeping me in shape and I was on a college sleeping schedule and I don't exercise. The app on my phone let me put in my weight now and my goal weight and at which rate I would like to loose weight. I put two pounds a week. So it told me I should only take in 1200 calories a day. I didn't think my eating habits were atrocious, but when I put in what I had for lunch alone I had exceeded my daily calorie intake. I guess now I know for tomorrow. Its also time to look up so light cardio exercises and ab workouts that won't overwhelm me. I don't think I'm ready for anyones advice yet. Its a very touchy topic in general for me, and especially today. I guess thats just because I tried to go shopping. It was god awful. When the biggest double digit size I could find in the store doesn't fit right its time to re-evaluate myself. Let me end this entry by saying, I feel like dying would be easier than achieving my goal weight.