Sometimes I wish my life were an 80s movie.

I wanted John Cusack holding a boombox outside of my window. I wanted to ride off on a lawnmower with Patrick Dempsey. I wanted Jake to be waiting outside of the church for ME. I wanted Judd Nelson throwing his fist into the air when he realized he had me. Instead I got a man who shares his life with me, who lends me his family, who gave me his whole heart. A man that tought me how to own at halo, (lol!) who made me have a star wars marathon, who turned me into a complete and total geek. A man that is perfect for me, my soul mate, someone who I will never have to doubt. My life is so much better because of him. Sorry I've been leaving you guys with just the 30 day challenge stuff, I promise not to make you guys live on that for the next month. I just didn't trust myself to write a blog two days ago that wasn't ugly, and one yesterday that wasn't telling things I'm not allowed to tell yet. :) I'll explain soon. Not allowed to yet though. Today was fun, Jeffrey my mom and I made two mosaics. The first was a memory stone for vegas. R.I.P baby! She was our old dog. She passed on in the middle of my senior year. The second was a piece for Jeffrey's mom for mother's day. It was really fun. I love getting crafty. I'm not very good at it unless I do it with my mom. I'll never be as creative as her. :( I wish that I were. Nothing else to really talk about. Other than the fact that I've been so down and insecure lately. Cue the worlds smallest violin.. I don't know, I just don't feel pretty, or like I've been getting enough attention lately. From anyone but Jeffrey, I'm his whole world, I know that. I mean like my friends or our families. I sound like I'm five. I know that. Try not to judge me though. I'm just going through an emotional phase. I really have been for about a week and a half. I've been really upset that the world seems like its moving on without me. Everyone is married or having babies, some people are even graduating college. I'm... just hanging out. I mean I'm still doing school, but I'm not doing anything important or awesome.. or making anyone proud. Including myself. We're getting married in six months.. I don't think anyone is excited about that though. Anyone but us. To be fair though we aren't talking about it with his family until its closer. By then Jeffrey will be working. Have I told you guys that? No more primerica. (Thank God!) While it really was a good company, it wasn't for us. I gritted my teeth and pretended it was awesome and stood by Jeffrey, the best I could anyway, while he was sure thats what he wanted to do. But, my prayers have been answered- he is done finally! His brother is opening up his plumbing business again and Jeffrey is goign to work with him. I'm so excited. I don't care if he works at mcdonalds, I just want him to do SOMETHING. I want to be proud of him, and I will be. I can't wait for him to help take care of me. I want to be able to depend on him. I want my mom and kirk to be proud of him. I want everyone to know that we will make it. I want to start with nothing and struggle and build a life out of it. Although I don't care what he does for a living, I am so excited that hes choosing plumbing. It's in his family. They've all been plumbers! There are three companies in the family for crying out loud. He likes it. He's good at it. And lastly, its man's work. Thats a job you can hang your hat on. I feel so much better about our future knowing hes going to do that. Wow, I feel better. Awe, He fixes everything. He's at his house, I'm at mine, and we're not even talking yet, he made me feel better. I love that man. I do not however love the emotional rollercoaster I have been on for about a week and a half. I need medication. Later babies.