Glass half empty kind of mood

Today was really long. I worked all day, and I ended up getting no tips. Actually I had about five dollars in coins. Thats a big deal because I worked for six hours and the only thing I have to show for it is eighteen dollars on my paycheck. that should be here tomorrow though. After work Jeffrey took me to dinner at golden corral. I don't really like golden corral except for the salad bar. I love salad bars. I just love salad. It tastes good and I don't feel guilty for eating it. I've always loved vegetables and the only fruits I like are cherries and bananas. We ran into Kim, Colton, and her new Fiance, William. He was nice and Colton kept calling him dad. They all seemed happy and that made me really happy. I love them and I'm glad things are going right for them right now. Terri and the babies went home today. They'll be back wednesday or thursday when the next cold front hits. I was really upset when I didn't have any money left over at the end of the day after counting down. It might have fallen out of my pocket, someone could have grabbed it when we were all huddled around the sundae station. I wouldn't put it past any of the people I work with to take a handful. I wouldn't've been able to feel it because my pocket was so heaping full and protruding. It probably blew away though because it was freaking windy today. I know that I made tips though we were busy all day. I'm so mad at myself. I will be extra careful from now on though. I was counting on the tips I made today to get Jeffrey a birthday present. I don't work again until friday. I'm glad because if I didn't get a day off soon I was going to shoot the sonic up and massacre everyone there real soon, but on the other hand I need moniesss! Jeffrey turns 21 on thursday. We aren't doing anything crazy though he said he just wants to go out to eat with his family and order something to drink. Thats fine for him, but I am going to celebrate big on mine. Jeffrey is going to leave me for  valentines day. Thats right, hes going to a five star resort in puerto rico without me and he'll be gone on valentine's day. I don't think having once in a lifetime experiences like that without your significant other is okay I'm really sad/mad about that. All I know is that if he goes without me, we're going to have major issues to sort out. Its not that I don't want him to go or for him to have that experience, I just feel like when he gave me a ring, and asked me to share my life with him that meant from that moment on., and that we should do those kinds of things together.I wouldn't go without him. We'll see though. He swears up and down that hes going to get me a ticket but he leaves the 12th and thats rapidly approaching. We shall see. Thats all I have for you guys tonight. See you babies tomorrow.