Can't stop stumbling!

So last night I discovered Stumbleupon.com AMAZING. I couldn't stop. I don't know how late I am or how long that website has been around, but its so fun. :D Nothing else even remotely interesting has happened lately so I have nothing to write about. I'm probably just going to stumble upon some more websites. So I'll leave you with a few pictures of one of the lights of my life. The baby girl that holds my heart, Taryn Marie, and her gorgeous momma, my sister. I love them so much. ENJOY!!

Nerd

I know this because of how excited I am about Oregon Trail being on facebook. Its sad that this is the most exciting that to happen to me in ages. LOL. I'm getting better slowly. Still sick, but not as bad- I can mostly function. Until my medicine wears off then Jeffrey needs to carry me places but he won't. I've been putting off finishing my book because I'm almost done and I won't have anything else to read. How sad is that? I really want to finish it this series was way better than I thought it would be. All day yesterday and today Jeffrey's mom was off and we decided to finally tackle this HUGE project thats been looming over us indefinitely forever. Repacking and organizing the storage building. It was a lot of moving things. There was a lot of memories to go through. All before I came around so it was fun to hear all the stories, and see what Jeffrey looked like as a baby. We're going to have pretty cute babies when the time comes. Speaking of adorable freaking babies Dominic was over today. That was nice. I missed my tiny man. I'm glad that we don't have him everyday anymore though I felt like they were taking advantage of us. Now sandi gets paid to watch him. Which isn't fair since we hardly ever got paid when we had him but whatever shes got nothing else going on with her so I'll just keep my mouth shut. I'm glad she has something to do. I wish IIIIIIII had something to do. Work? Yes please! No one has called. :( I'll talk to you guys again soon.

I have to whisper!

My voice is lost from all the coughing. The deep, barking coughing! Thank the Lord for mommies. She's my mom, my friend, my adviser, my nurse and my pharmacist. I'm STILL sick but thanks to her magic pills I can breathe! Poor mom is still trying to get over the ickness too, and of course Jeffrey got it when I did and was over it yesterday! His Immune system better be passed onto our offspring. Not likely though. I can't wait to be unsick so that I can actively go out and job hunt again. I feel useless not working. My second online class has started though. This time it is Medical Law and Ethics I've not heard good things about it. I guess it will be less tortureous since its online. I've been waiting for Jarod to finish his raidings on WOW so that we can watch the office and outsourced that we have recorded, and I think hes almost done. When I woke up I got raylen from school and took her to dance class then we sent her to her mom's sides family so we're baby free tonight and Jarod has been glued to WOW, Jeffrey to Reach, and until a moment ago I was glued to DCUO. Sooo fun! Its even got me curious about all the superheroes and stuff. I won't look into it probably because like its name its a whole UNIVERSE and I'm not interested in submitting my name into that category of geek. Thats pretty far down there. Now Jeffrey is playing and I'm writing to you guys. In two weeks we're going camping for a week. His family does it every spring break since when his mom was little. All of his aunts and their families go too. We go to martin dies jr state park right outside of jasper. Its pretty fun. Last year thats where me and pepper actually became friends. I don't know if Shannon and Kenny are going I know they will for a day or two but probably not the whole time. That makes me happy because I didn't want to have to distance myself from the group and that would be nesecary to have a good time with them there. I know Jeffrey's brother Johnny can't make it and his other brother beau and his wife are only able to come for a few days but everyone else is going so it should be fun. My cousin Krissy and her husband, Keith, are going to come visit for a night as well. That'll be fun. I miss her! I haven't mentioned it to anyone but Jeffrey and he assured me no one would care. I believe him his family is like that. I think Krissy and Jarod would either be best friends or total enemies. I don't want Jeffrey to know that I love camping because I made such a big fuss about not going last year, but I do. Thats all I have for tonight since Jarod is done and we can watch our shows. Bye bye babies!

Tiny Update

It seems as though I'm on a cycle. I'm destined to be sick after I go too long without being sick. Poor Jeffrey he has it too. I just want to sleep forever. There is good news though! I finished up my class today. So my next one should start in about two days I don't know which one it will be yet though. I also got the final book in my trilogy today. I'm so excited to read it! Other than that nothing much is going on and I feel too much like crap to talk anymore. I'm just going to go wallow in sickness and be lethargic. The one upside to sickness! See y'all later!

Sick babies, babies, and books

Don't get to excited I'm not sure this will be much of an update. I'm really tired. Last night at one AM terri got a hold of us and said the babies were running really bad fever and she wanted to go to the ER. Don't judge we really aren't the kind of people to be like, "OMG a runny nose! Lets go to the emergency room!" High fevers just scare us since my dad died of meningitis. We had an AWFUL experience. We were there for eight hours just to find out it was the flu and they could do nothing about it. Taryn has been having trouble breathing though so we got her checked out for pneumonia which was negative, thank god. I got home at ten AM and went to sleep until  six thirty. Shame on me. I'm still exhausted though so I know that I can sleep early tonight too. When I woke up Raylen hadn't been feeling good so I took her temperature. She had 103.4! So we went and got her medicine and apple juice and I've been force feeding her popsicles. Lol. Shes really enjoying being babied though. As if she never is- whatever! She then drew me a valentines day card. You know how kids are, holidays last days or weeks to them. It was a picture of me and her and we were standing on dasies. When you open it we're holding hands and there are fire works and she wrote "my favorite auntie." I almost cried. I'm keeping it forever. I love that little girl so much. We found out that we are indeed having another nephew. Shannon and Kenny are five months along, and its a boy. I'm excited for another new baby to love and I hope that sooner rather than later everything will work out with us because I need to be around that baby and love it to pieces like I do Jade, Raylen, Harley, Kameron, Dominic, and Taryn. The only other thing I have to talk about is my new obsession with Dc Universe online. Its amazing. Jeffrey got it for his birthday and we've been playing it its so much fun. I highly reccomend it. Now I'm off to check for a place online where maybe I could trade books for books. I know they have a website like that for movies. I can't afford to keep up with my reading habit. Books are expensive and I go through them too fast. Thats all for tonight. Bon Soir.

You know what's awesome?

Pandora Radio. That, and I quit my job today. I feel relieved even saying that. I was off for about a week and supposed to come back tonight. I couldn't. Just thinking that it was time to go back made me feel miserable and so much dread I could barely stand it. I had a long hard talk about it with Jeffrey. He eventually talked me into it. He said I'm just twenty and I shouldn't settle for such a crappy job. That I had time to try out a few different things. Its not a career its a fast food job. That made me feel better because it had only been two months and I felt like I'd be such a quitter. I guess he was right. That job was so not worth the emotional toll it took on me. I shouldn't come home from work crying at ANY job, especially that job. They are nowhere near superior to me, regardless of what they think. So now I'm scurrying around aimlessly looking for another job- QUICK. Hopefully it will be easier now that I have some experience. I don't think I can use Sonic as a reference though since I didn't give two weeks notice. I did however write a note explaining to the manager, Greg, why I couldn't stay a minute longer. They will have a very easy time replacing me, so I guess I don't feel too bad leaving without much notice. Okay, no notice. Anywhooo, I went to see Terri and the babies to see how they were doing since they got their income tax today. They're doing better, but the income tax check isn't going to fix everything for them like I hoped it would. Shes done far more with much less so I know she will make it. My mother and my sister are two such strong women I really look up to them in a lot of ways. I'm going to get her and the babies tomorrow so she can look for a car. We might end up taking the k man to the dr. instead though he was running fever tonight. Poor baby :( Last night Jeffrey took me out for our valentine's date late. It was the best valentines day I ever had. We went and saw True Grit at AMC 30- the nice theater. When we came home he had tulips waiting for me. They were so pretty! Then he brought out a bottle of wine- since he could now he's 21! My favorite kind too, white zifandel, or however its spelled. We sipped that and had some sushi while we talked. It was perfect. He was perfect. He knows me so well. I feel happy and relieved tonight. Who knows how long it will last, but thank god for this peaceful state of mind right now. Its been so long since I've been worry free.

I'm so ready

Jeffrey gets home tonight! I'm so excited. :D I haven't wrote since hes been gone much because I promised Jeffrey I wouldn't be sad and I lied. I didn't want to make his trip bad. I had an awful time while he was gone, but I got a lot of sleep and started a new book. I also talked to a lot of strangers lol. It is nice to do my own thing but I'd like smaller incraments of time to do it in. Maybe an afternoon here and there. I don't really ever want for me time, I don't know what Janey's talking about. Jeffrey is my ultimate absolute all around all time best friend and I never want to get away from him. Even when we're mad, hes the only thing that makes me feel better. Since he's coming back we're gonna do a late valentine's day and celebrate his birthday for real. I'm excited. I hope its the best valentine's day we have had together yet. Because it felt really awful spending yesterday without him. Valentine's day has always been a big deal to me, I don't care if it is a corporate born holiday or not. I like any chance to go out of my way to show him I love him. I do little things all year, but its fun to do it when other people play along too. In other news I'm addicted to this game called entanglement. You should try it! Play it here!  It might only work on google chrome though, i don't know. Thats all tonight, babies.

My heart is in Puerto Rico

I'd really love to regale you all with tales of intrigue and laughter. I really hate not venting in my blog, but i also really hate having nothing positive to say either. Right now I don't. A lot has gone on. A huge fight between my mom and sister that I have to deal with, working way too much- which always leads me cranky, and Jeffrey is in puerto rico.

I made him go. I think I would be sad if he missed that once in a lifetime experience because  of me. That and I think he deserves to have fun since hes always taking care of me and raylen and his mom. I know he feels really bad about leaving me. I'm not gonna lie I'm pretty damn heartbroken. My days are just so... wrong without him. Its only like four days though and I know the world will go on, I just miss him.

Tomorrow I'm calling into work. I just don't give a rat's behind anymore I NEED to find another job. I'm going to sleep in tomorrow, and then I'm going to find another job. Or at least try switching to another Sonic. I've also been researching my next life move a lot lately. I want to get a lot of information before I write about it here and upset anyone. I feel like its the right thing and Jeffrey seems to be on board with it so now I'm just trying to get as much good and bad information as I can before I go talk to someone about how to make my plans happen.

Thats all tonight. Hopefully when I'm feeling less pissy I'll give you guys something better to read. Good luck though, I'm a bad blogger lately.

Glass half empty kind of mood

Today was really long. I worked all day, and I ended up getting no tips. Actually I had about five dollars in coins. Thats a big deal because I worked for six hours and the only thing I have to show for it is eighteen dollars on my paycheck. that should be here tomorrow though. After work Jeffrey took me to dinner at golden corral. I don't really like golden corral except for the salad bar. I love salad bars. I just love salad. It tastes good and I don't feel guilty for eating it. I've always loved vegetables and the only fruits I like are cherries and bananas. We ran into Kim, Colton, and her new Fiance, William. He was nice and Colton kept calling him dad. They all seemed happy and that made me really happy. I love them and I'm glad things are going right for them right now. Terri and the babies went home today. They'll be back wednesday or thursday when the next cold front hits. I was really upset when I didn't have any money left over at the end of the day after counting down. It might have fallen out of my pocket, someone could have grabbed it when we were all huddled around the sundae station. I wouldn't put it past any of the people I work with to take a handful. I wouldn't've been able to feel it because my pocket was so heaping full and protruding. It probably blew away though because it was freaking windy today. I know that I made tips though we were busy all day. I'm so mad at myself. I will be extra careful from now on though. I was counting on the tips I made today to get Jeffrey a birthday present. I don't work again until friday. I'm glad because if I didn't get a day off soon I was going to shoot the sonic up and massacre everyone there real soon, but on the other hand I need moniesss! Jeffrey turns 21 on thursday. We aren't doing anything crazy though he said he just wants to go out to eat with his family and order something to drink. Thats fine for him, but I am going to celebrate big on mine. Jeffrey is going to leave me for  valentines day. Thats right, hes going to a five star resort in puerto rico without me and he'll be gone on valentine's day. I don't think having once in a lifetime experiences like that without your significant other is okay I'm really sad/mad about that. All I know is that if he goes without me, we're going to have major issues to sort out. Its not that I don't want him to go or for him to have that experience, I just feel like when he gave me a ring, and asked me to share my life with him that meant from that moment on., and that we should do those kinds of things together.I wouldn't go without him. We'll see though. He swears up and down that hes going to get me a ticket but he leaves the 12th and thats rapidly approaching. We shall see. Thats all I have for you guys tonight. See you babies tomorrow.

Gun muffs, gumption, and a lot of gall

I've been really busy the past few days. That means I've been at home (my mom's house) and working alot. I've also been doing my online classwork. That really random cold front came through and Terri's house was too cold for the babies so they came to stay. It was really nice spending time with my favorite mckeegans. Kendall didn't come stay though and I felt so bad for him in their cold house all alone :( I just haven't had any energy/time to update. I did miss the venting though. I haven't gotten any good sleep for days. Kameron snores like a full grown man, and that sound just gets under my skin. Two nights into them staying Terri came up with a genius idea for me to get to sleep. Gun muffs. Yes, I mean ear muffs you wear at the gun range/race track when you're little. They look like this. It was uncomfortable at first but once it was quiet I slept like a baby. Jeffrey made jokes about me keeping them for when we're married. Yeah, no. He'll need to get surgery or something first. It was nice having Taryn live with me for a few days. It felt like when Kameron was a newborn and I'd come home from college while Terri lived at home. It was nice to have that experience with her too. I feel like I know her routine and her schedule and her more now. Works just been awful. I HATE the people I work with. I don't know how much more I can take of that job. A job at sonic is not worth that much stress and blatant disrespect I deal with. I'm very much looking for a new job. What sucks is that I'm not going to make the kind of money I make here anywhere else unless I can get a waitressing job somewhere. I have work again early tomorrow and I'm dreading it. They've sent me home crying two times in the past three days. Thats not okay. I hate that they think they can talk to me the way they do, and that I need my job bad enough to take it. I'm really tired so I guess I'll talk to you guys tomorrow.