A Blog-full

Oh my God, its been a long time! I'm sorry I've been going nonstop, and I've only just caught my breath enough to update you all. I guess I'll start with my trip to Nebraska. It was wonderful despite the circumstances. Wonderful because the last time I saw all the Carpenters was for a family reunion ten plus years ago. It nice to feel apart of something with a history and have something in common with so many people. It nice to feel that everyone loves everyone just because they are apart of eachother. I miss so much having my family around. I guess thats why I spend so much time at Jeffrey's. I feel bad lately though I miss spending time with my mom, and I've been home a lot more. After I got back from Nebraska Jeffrey and I had a talk about our wedding plans. We're thinking of going to the JP and then having a backyard reception and going to EUROPE for a honeymoon! That would be amazing. Or alternatively having a whole backyard wedding and going on a nice trip. Either way I think we've both kind of given up the dreams of a wedding wedding. I mean ten thousand dollars? Thats a lot of money! We can go ahead and spend ten thousand but only use maybe two for a backyard wedding, and then eight on a trip to wherever we please! I've always wanted to travel and I feel like I should before we have kids. I'd like to one day travel WITH my kids, but it doesn't seem like a possibility right now since I realize how expensive things are. So tell me what you think about our wedding plans?? After that we went camping  for eight days. It was nice! We did a whole mess of nothing and my cousin Krissy came to see us for a little while. It was nice seeing her! Everyone got a long beautifully. Pepper acted like she was my best friend, and Shannon even talked to me like we were okay We've been back for a few days and we're still talking some, which is huge after fighting for women in case you didn't know. Especially two spiteful bitches like ourselves. Hahahaha. We're not friends, but we're civil and I can handle that. Its nice to not be fighting anymore. Now I'm just working on school and thinking about our approaching wedding and contemplating my next life steps. I'll keep you guys updated.

Busy bee

I know that its been a while. I've been busy traveling, homework, dealing with my relationships and just plain living. We're about to leave for camping on saturday, so i won't be updating then either. Sorry I've been of no entertainment. I'll see you guys in a little more than a week. I'm going to lay in bed and watch my show. :)

I'm the luckiest girl ever

Can I just start by saying I love my aunt leeleen, and aunt vj? I really do. They're sending me to cozad so I can make it to the funeral with them. I couldn't afford to since I quit my job. I was really torn up about it yesterday/last night. Could you even imagine not saying goodbye? I feel so loved and relieved and taken care of. Not to mention mom is loaning me some money to eat on while I go. I get to just go say goodbye and mourn and that feels so good because I don't have to worry about anything but my grandma. I know I'm emotional and everything from it happening anyway, but I just wanna cry so much that they are taking me with them. I'm so appreciative and I'll probably not stop hugging anyone. I leave saturday, the funeral is Monday, and I come home Tuesday. I looked up the forecast, and I might not make it home its going to be FREEZING. Not literally, but for a texas girl it will be. Dealing with my sadness seems so much more attainable now, and I hope so much to see my uncle donnie wayne and my aunt margie lynn while I'm there. I'm sure they will try to make it. I just want to see everyone so I can make one more memory with them since obviously life isn't guaranteed. I hate that revelation hanging so heavy after each person's death. Anyway, I have the best family in the world. I feel so blessed, and even now I have one more guardian angel looking after me. Thats all I'm up for for tonight. Thanks for listening babies.

Heaven gained an angel today

 And The world lost an amazing woman. My grandmother Beverly June went to be with the lord. I'm beyond upset that shes gone, she's all I had left of my daddy. I am however happy that she is with him again and my uncle art and they're taking care of eachother now. I hate getting older and one person after the other is leaving my life.. I'm just really bummed out. She's never got to meet Taryn. She won't be at my wedding, and she'll never meet my kids. I'm just heartbroken even though I know she's all better now. Thats all I have to say for tonight. She was such a lady. She was the epitome of manners and class. She was fabulous and I always wanted to be like her. When I was little she was my best friend. I spent all my time with her and at her house. She told me crazy stories to account for my questions. Like when I wanted to know why some people were black. She told me because they come from africa and its by the equator, and its REALLY hot there so their skin was God's way of protecting them from sunburns. :) I always believed her too. She treated me like an adult even when I was tiny. One time I was too scared to sleep and she told my tiny little self that, "there was nothing to fear but fear itself." Coming from her it made me feel better. Sometimes she even brought me a whole bag full of french fries.  Rest In Peace Grandma June. I love and miss you (already) I'll be thinking of you.